Saturday, December 9, 2006

Opening Night

I am going to start off my blog the way so many others have by saying that I have no idea how to start this thing, so I'll just go for it and hope I don't trip on my way onto the stage.

I am a recovering(?) mormon who spent 30 years in the church. I was born and raised in it and thought I would be "faithful" until the day I died. I pictured myself as a chink in the eternal chain of happiness, surrounded by my husband, children, ancestors, and progenitors. Then, in July of 2001, my world collapsed around me as my husband, Gluby, told me he was having doubts about the church. The last five or so years have been the steepest, deepest roller coaster ride I have ever been on in my life.

After hundreds, seems like thousands, of deep, difficult conversations with Gluby, in the vast majority of which I was reserved, withdrawn and silently angry, I have finally started to peek through my eyelids at the world around me and have been astounded at what I have found. I will eventually post more about all of that stuff, but for right now I will keep things short. I have this desire to write everything down right now, but that would be way too long for an introduction and I don't think anyone would be able to understand my scattered thoughts.

Anyway, I have spent the last three-and-a-half years working on my undergrad stuff and raising children while Gluby was in law school. I am finally a junior, but I haven't been able to figure out my major yet as I want to be a geologist, volcanologist, sociologist, and/or an anthropologist. I still feel like I am in High School wondering what I want to be when I grow up.

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

Great first post, LB! I love it! I can't wait to read more. Being a woman who was married for 13 years to a non-member, I'll be able to relate to what you hinted at here with being silently angry, and then seeing the world for the first time with eyes that see! Keep up the great writing, and comments over on my blog too!!

Sister Mary Lisa

Lemon Blossom said...

Sister Mary Lisa,

Thanks for taking pity on me and being the first to post a comment on my blog!

I have no idea how you get ideas for posting. I keep thinking about them, but when I sit to write I go blank. It's like I'm writing for one of my college courses and I just don't know what to write about because I want to write about everything. Now.

Anonymous said...

Um, pity?! I don't think so. You guys are cool.

As for the writing...I try not to think on it too hard, and just write one of the things that is floating around in my mind. Just take one and run with it. It's an awesome feeling to be creative that way, in my opinion.

SML

Anonymous said...

PS, I tagged you and Glubeman for sharing 6 weird things about yourself on your blog! That'll give you something to blog about!

SML

Gluby said...

Well, I guess we'll have to add a blog post about it, and I've already announced it on Christy's blog, but...

Yesterday (Dec. 12, 2006) was PANTY DAY!

We received LB's new underwear in the mail, and the garmies came off. This morning, though she felt timid about it and said she might wear them again if she feels uncomfortable, she stepped out into the world without garments on for the first time since she started wearing them (8 or 9 years ago, I believe).

It is a momentous occasion, really. Milestone. She was really unsure about it as the time came closer, so I'm proud of her that she was able to swallow the fear and step out into the strange new world of sub-sartorial partial nudity.

Anonymous said...

Sub-sartorial partial nudity, huh? I never knew that's what I was doing all these years, having never worn garments myself...had to have written permission from my non-member hubby, you know. He wouldn't give it.

SML

Pete Dunn said...

Wait? My Mormon wife needs my written permission to wear those awful things? Where do I not sign?

Lemon, nice going on the new blog. Keep it up. Just remember to keep it honest.

Sister Mary Lisa said...

Actually, Pete, she needs your written permission in order to attend the temple to take out her endowment. It is one of those rules that you could seriously wield. Unless it's only for first-time endowment seekers. Of course, it could cause your wife to think that you don't respect her wishes or love her very much. That could be how she perceives it. It almost did my marriage in.

Equality said...

Hey, I said this over at Hubby of Bride of Gluby's blog, but really, whenever an exmo starts a new blog, Equality is supposed to be alerted. I will forgive you this faux pas since I enjoy so much both you and Gluby's new blogs. You are hereby added to the Equality blogroll of exmo/dismo fame! Welcome to Outer Blogness!