Monday, December 31, 2007

Perfect New Year's Eve

8 years ago today, Gluby asked me to marry him. It was a cold, foggy evening on a bridge in the middle of the city in which we lived. He asked me if I could make one wish what would it be. Now, we both knew what I wanted (for him to ask me to marry him), but every time I had tried to bring it up he changed the topic of conversation, so I said a few generic answers. He said, "No, what would you really wish for?" I said, "You know what I would wish." And the next thing I knew I was looking at Gluby kneeling on the cold, snowy bridge asking me if I would marry him.

In my head I said shrieking, "This is it!! This is the moment I have been waiting for all of my life!!! He's asking me to marry him!! This is it!!!!! This is it!!!! Holy cow, no way! No Way!! This is it!!" Then he said, "Well?" (I guess he hadn't heard the conversation going on in my head and the excitement exploding in my body) I giddily replied YES!, threw out my arms, and gave him a huge hug. After we hugged a kissed he asked, "Do you want to try on the ring?" I said, "What ring?" He said, "The ring in your hand." "Ring in my hand?" I looked down to find he had placed the ring in my hand when he asked me to marry him, but my hands were so cold I couldn't feel it. We got lucky that I hadn't tossed it into the river when I threw my hands around to hug him. Anyway, he put it on and it fit perfectly. I was completely and utterly surprised and it was a beautiful evening.

Tonight we celebrated the New Year by "chinging" glasses full of sparkling apple juice with our kids while eating chocolate chip cookies and frozen yogurt. I read a few books to the kids and listened to them playing with each other and giggling up a storm while they wait for Gluby to give them their nightly tea. I would definitely rate this as another one of my perfect New Year's Eves: listening to my 2 1/2 yr old saying "pink bunny" as his older brother reads him a book, having my 5 1/2 yr old gently rub his back and say "good job, baby!" as his little brother points to another object and says "yellow bee," and hearing the boys giggle as Papa tickles them while tucking them in. What better evening could there be?

Happy New Year to everyone! I hope your winter celebrations have been joyful and renewing. I have been thinking about you all and hope all is well, even if I am mostly lurking. :)

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Happy Bloggiversary to me

A lot has changed in the last year since I started blogging. Many of those changes I never would have imagined happening, but I am happier than I have been in years, so those changes have been a good thing.

I haven't been writing as much of the last month because my real life got very busy (in a good way). I have been inspired by Liseysmom (scroll down to Oct. 27th - GO LM!!) to improve my physical self and I finally started exercising again. I knew if I had a *goal, though, that I would do well until I reached it and then I'd quit, so I didn't start until I was ready for a life change. A couple of months ago I was finally ready and I started walking .6 miles every day. Then I started walking 1.2 miles after a couple of weeks. 3-4 weeks ago I started jogging: .4 miles, then .6 miles, and now .8. I am increasing slowly because I know I'll burn out if I jump in too quickly. I have only missed three days of walking/jogging in the past two months and am happy that I have started to enjoy it (you gotta love CA weather - running in a T-shirt in December).

I have reached the point where I want to spend less time looking at what I don't believe in and start looking for things to believe in. Gluby and I are almost done with Bertrand Russell's "Conquest of Happiness" (I learned so much about myself reading that book), we have been listening to Carl Sagan's "Demon Haunted World" (loooove it), reading/listening to Michael Parenti (lots of stuff by him, love it all), and watching movies (some to broaden our minds and others to turn them into vegetables). I have even started crocheting again (though I usually only spend about 10 minutes a day doing it so I don't get sick of it.)

So, to those who may remember me and wonder where I am and how I am doing, there you go. :) I haven't fallen off the face of the earth (yet) and things are going really well. In fact, I am enjoying CA more than I thought I would. I feel like I am finally starting to live my life again. Feel the love for others that intellectually I knew was there, hiding under the pain, fear, numbness, and fragility that was me for so many years. Thank you to everyone who has been a part of this roller coaster ride that I have thus far called my life. Here's to many more years for all of us. *Clink*

*What I meant to say was weight or event goal. When I reach my goal I find that I am then over tired and unmotivated. So this time my goal is to exercise 4-6 times a week.