A lot has changed in the last year since I started blogging. Many of those changes I never would have imagined happening, but I am happier than I have been in years, so those changes have been a good thing.
I haven't been writing as much of the last month because my real life got very busy (in a good way). I have been inspired by Liseysmom (scroll down to Oct. 27th - GO LM!!) to improve my physical self and I finally started exercising again. I knew if I had a *goal, though, that I would do well until I reached it and then I'd quit, so I didn't start until I was ready for a life change. A couple of months ago I was finally ready and I started walking .6 miles every day. Then I started walking 1.2 miles after a couple of weeks. 3-4 weeks ago I started jogging: .4 miles, then .6 miles, and now .8. I am increasing slowly because I know I'll burn out if I jump in too quickly. I have only missed three days of walking/jogging in the past two months and am happy that I have started to enjoy it (you gotta love CA weather - running in a T-shirt in December).
I have reached the point where I want to spend less time looking at what I don't believe in and start looking for things to believe in. Gluby and I are almost done with Bertrand Russell's "Conquest of Happiness" (I learned so much about myself reading that book), we have been listening to Carl Sagan's "Demon Haunted World" (loooove it), reading/listening to Michael Parenti (lots of stuff by him, love it all), and watching movies (some to broaden our minds and others to turn them into vegetables). I have even started crocheting again (though I usually only spend about 10 minutes a day doing it so I don't get sick of it.)
So, to those who may remember me and wonder where I am and how I am doing, there you go. :) I haven't fallen off the face of the earth (yet) and things are going really well. In fact, I am enjoying CA more than I thought I would. I feel like I am finally starting to live my life again. Feel the love for others that intellectually I knew was there, hiding under the pain, fear, numbness, and fragility that was me for so many years. Thank you to everyone who has been a part of this roller coaster ride that I have thus far called my life. Here's to many more years for all of us. *Clink*
*What I meant to say was weight or event goal. When I reach my goal I find that I am then over tired and unmotivated. So this time my goal is to exercise 4-6 times a week.