I miss the connection I used to have with my family.
I miss feeling like I could be myself around them.
I miss the highs that came from "feeling" "The Spirit."
I miss feeling hopeful.
I miss community.
I miss "Knowing"
I miss feeling like I have direction in my life.
I miss feeling happy and full inside
I miss "knowing" that there is a God who loves me and knows who I am and watches out for me.
I do not miss always feeling unworthy and so utterly far from being who God wanted me to be that I would never make it to the Celestial Kingdom.
I do not miss feeling guilty for being a human being with sexual desires
I do not miss feeling like I always have to be a role instead of just being who I am: mother, wife, visiting teacher, primary teacher, member missionary, former full-time missionary (so I must be good at missionary opportunities, right?)
I do not miss feeling guilty for not being perfect: did I miss a missionary opportunity? did I just commit a little sin and lose The Spirit so now I won't be guided in my life? Did I do enough? I get angry, I get depressed, I lash out. If I had just studied the scriptures more or prayed more I wouldn't have re/acted that way.
I do not miss feeling the pressure to read and study "the scriptures" every day, go to the temple, go visiting teaching, have one year supply of everything, go to the cannery, genealogy, have a garden, read the Ensign, listen to GC/stake conference, feel eternally fulfilled by folding laundry and making dinner, prepare a spiritual FHE so my kids won't leave the church and forever damn my family, look happy all the time so others can see how happy we are and join the church because they'll be happy and fulfilled too.
I do not miss being afraid that I'll read, hear, or watch something that will make me "lose my testimony."
I do not miss being afraid that Satan is out to get my soul and the souls of my family.
I'll probably add more to this list as I think of them. It's kinda late and it's been a hard day.