Monday, August 13, 2007

Reality Bites

When I thought my kids had lice I really appreciated my sisters frank, honest answer. Basically she said it would be hell (though that was not the specific word she used) and then she gave me specifics on how her three month ordeal went. I loved it because I felt prepared.

I don't know if there is anyway to prepare myself for the emotions I am having at leaving Oregon. Or more specifically, Amber. Amber and I have talked this last spring about the impending move but neither of us could really grasp the reality of it. That reality hit today as I stopped on over for a moment to giver her some blackberries from the bush in our backyard. We talked for 10-15 minutes and then I said, "you know, ironically enough, or appropriately enough, I heard 'Lean on me' while I was pulling into the parking lot and it really made me think of how we have been there for each other." Of course I started to get teary and then we hugged and both started to cry. Then we talked for a few more minutes and then started to cry and hug more (you'd think I was leaving today and that I wouldn't be seeing her tomorrow). I said goodbye and walked to the car bawling. I am still emotional from the impact of reality finally hitting me square in the face.

She has been my rock and comforter over the past18 months. When I couldn't talk to Gluby I could talk to her. When I wanted to get away and giggle about everything and nothing I went to her house (or she to mine). When I had important questions about whatever I'd ask her or bounce them off of her. I had no idea the first time I met her or the first time we really started to talk just how important, influential, and stabilizing she would be in my life. I feel like I am leaving half of myself behind.

Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you WON’T let show

you just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that YOU’LL understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For ,it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on


YA just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that YOU’LL understand
We all need somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me
call me (if you need a friend)
call me (call me)
etc...

7 comments:

Loralee Choate said...

Oh, man. My friends are like my family and the thought of leaving them makes my tummy hurt.

I ache for you, and I know this is really hard.

wry catcher said...

Finding such a friend is a rare and wonderful thing. I know it's hard to leave, I have moved my whole life. She is part of you, though, forever.

Hugs.

Freckle Face Girl said...

Finding a friend as wonderful as that is rare. Hopefully, you can re-create some of those moments over the phone even though it will never be quite the same.

Cele said...

What Wry said, your true friends are your true friends for life - distance be damned.

Anonymous said...

It is rare you find a friend that is true!! They are always a part of who you are no matter how far apart you are!...JOOM

Sister Mary Lisa said...

When Gluby's a rich and famous lawyer (J/K, Glubeman. Don't be mad) you can plan a ladies' trip with Amber to Paris. Yep.

Lemon Blossom said...

Loralee – My friends have become my family as well and it makes my stomach hurt as well. The nice thing about all of you is that I can take you with me. That is nice. :)

Wry – Thank you for reminding me that she is here with me, even if she isn't there with me.

FFG – I guess because it is so rare I will cherish the time we have had together even more. I love that we have the same cell phone company so we can talk all we want (at least as much as kids and school will allow us)

Cele – damn distance and distance be damed!

JOOM – Yay! I'm glad to see you back again. Which reminds me, I must update my blog roll and get your new link up.

You know, I love how all of you have touched my life in little and big ways. You are all a part of me in one way or another. I love it. And I wish you were all closer!

SML – I still haven't forgiven you for taking off to Paris without me, but I do like your plan! Yep.